"To My Maybe-Babies"

Amanda Hobbs

"To My Maybe-Babies"
Thursday, April 07, 2016

To my sweet little maybe-babies,

I feel like I have been waiting forever and a lifetime for this. I have so much to say to you but I am unsure of where to start. There have been so many things that have happened leading up to this; good things and bad things, great times and extremely hard times.

My entire world revolves around this very minute, this very second... The moment when you come home.

You see, life out here is hard and getting you here has been even harder, but I will say that I would do it all again, 100 times if it meant holding you in my arms.  In 7 more days I will find out if you survived the journey; if you decided to grow and flourish and I am so incredibly anxious and excited and terrified all at once.

One day, when you are old enough, I will explain the process and how you made your way into this great, big world.  And then I will squeeze you tight and tell you how much I love you and how thankful I am to the Lord for finally blessing me with you.

For now, you are still a tiny cluster of cells, ready to grow and I pray all day, every day that you will.

I already love you more than you will ever be able to imagine.

For the time being, I will do my very best to make things comfortable for you, I will try not to stress and I will continue to pray, for when I am talking to God, I feel most at peace. I will trust in my hope and I will do whatever it takes.

You and your Daddy are my reason for living, you are my everything and I love you more than words can express. I am so grateful for being given the opportunity for you to even have a chance. I am grateful to God and to your Daddy, who also loves you very much.

In 7 days we will take a test. In 7 days we will know if we have a chance to meet you. One week. We can do it. Together.

Welcome home sweet babies. You are so loved.